Today August 10, 2015 marks the anniversary of your passing in 1988. I wish I had known you better but I was too young. My memories of you are mere shadows against the back wall. They are barely visible to me but they are not gone. I read on Facebook this morning how you are missed by your children and how you touched the hearts of so many. I would like to tell you how your life impacted mine but I can hardly remember it. When I close my eyes I can see your smile and I can hear your voice but I cannot remember your words. I see you surrounded by my young cousins. I can see Chum standing in his crib, the twins curly hair (they caused me great confusion), and the boys sitting quietly (that never happened at my house). I remember wondering what you would be like as a mother but I would never know because you were not mine.
Time slipped by and people drifted apart. Our family visits came to a near end. I wondered for a few years what happened and then my mother spoke the dreadful word cancer. That was the first time I ever heard of it. I wasn’t sure what it would mean for you and your family. I remember my mother crying. I asked her if we could visit you and she explained to me that you and your family needed time alone. I listened in on conversations about you from my bed at night. Uncle Ronny, Aunt Phyllis and few others would stop by and update my parents on how you were doing. I remember praying for you until one day we got a call. My heart broke for you all and I was lost in a sea of unanswered questions because no one wanted to talk about it. I still prayed but I didn’t understand why.
I may not have known you well in life but you still had a lasting impact on mine. In your passing you taught me to live, to love, and to make every moment count. After that day I loved my mother more than I ever did before. She, like you, had a heart of gold and I was the lucky pirate to have a treasure like her. You are always present and will always be remembered whether it was your life or your death that you are remembered for, one thing is always sure. You will be remembered with love