Illustrations or Illusions
I sometimes wonder if all illustrators see snap shots of the world the same way I do. For me it is often just a normal day doing normal things when I see something that appears one way and quickly transforms in my mind. It can be as simple as seeing a truck drive by on a highway with a dog hanging its head out the window. Soon the white truck is bright red with big bouncy black tires. The road turns to cobble stones and pot holes. The dog has huge lazy brown eyes that balance carefully on its big wet nose. The dog has a smile on its face with teeth similar to mine. Its long golden hair bounces around as his owner farmer Joe rumbles quickly down the back road to catch his horse that jumped the fence. The dog looks to his owner and in a deep rugged voice yells,” I see him Joe; he’s down by the old marsh. We better hurry up this rig before he…………..? A woman walking in her sun hat turns into a girly gator wearing pink polka dot sandals and her hat is adorned with wild flowers. She has a silver studded purse hanging over her shoulder with a gooey green frog peeking out of the front pocket looking back at me with fear. The girly gator was just about reach in her purse until she saw what was going on down by the marsh.” Ho my”, she said with an inquisitive voice, “A horse is going to……….? This is just one example of the many visions I have every day. It happens so often it would be impossible for me to paint them all. Sometimes I wish my brain had a built in camera. With the capabilities of my computer but my hard drive would crash weekly from over load. I am now seeing a flashing banner run past my mind screaming, “ CRASHING, CRASHING, CRASHING, BACK UP FILES NOW!!!!!! ”
I see things that are not there and I make up stories to go along side my whimsical snap shots. I hear voices saying things from creatures that can’t talk. I live my life from the pictures no one else can see. I like my imaginary world and sometimes times I deliberately go there to avoid the reality around me. It is my escape and it offers me a break from the ills of the world we sometimes live in. Does any of these things sound like a reason for concern? Do I need to seek professional help to stop my visions? I have had them my whole life and without them I would be lost in a world that I would not recognize. It would be dull and boring. I would lose many of my funniest friends. These friends are ones that have never let me down and are always around. I turn off the outside world and look to my inner self for clarity and guidance. I grew up telling them my darkest secrets and going on adventures with them. They knew my wishes and dreams even before I knew what they were. I pray my characters and I will be together forever. I do seek professional help but not to get rid of my visions, I seek help to get them out to you. I would like everyone to see life the way I do. It is a place you will want to stay and play. A hundred years ago I would be locked up for such insanity but now I am called an illustrator with a right to have illusions. I AM AN ARTIST!
Below are some examples of how my first visions form into scenes and characters. From there I lightly scratch transfer to high quality paper. I will tweak the illustrations to show more expression and add details, change positions, add more to the scenes and decide on color. Today I am sharing just the preliminary sketches. I will share the finished work in a future post. Thank you for taking your time to join me here today. I appreciate you interest in what I do.
Your Friend, Carolin Palmer