Writers Block (feeling depleted)
Itis Monday and I need to have a blog out but today I don’t feel like writing. I struggled for the last couple days trying to find the drive to put my fingers to the keyboard. It was worse than trying to stick to a diet or go to the gym and to be honest I don’t do either of those very well. It felt like work and for me writing is my escape from that feeling. We have all had times when things get in the way of what we would like to do. I don’t often find myself short for words but sometimes it is my fear of saying to much that gets in my way of writing. When I am angry I find it easy to get what is on my mind out on paper. This is not always a good thing for me to do. I sometimes think about myself writing like someone might think about themselves carrying a weapon (not a good idea).
Sometimes writers block is simply because I feel too good to write. Last week was a great week with friends and colleagues. We celebrated the one year anniversary of Kid Literature Authors. We all spent many hours preparing for the big event and the response from people was overwhelming. I really couldn’t think of anything to top last week’s blog success and the great feeling of being a part of something that matters. Writing something new and not getting the same response means coming down from there. I feel like a drug addict chasing the next high and I have a fear of never reaching it again. The addiction is overwhelming sometimes.
Other people can cause me to experience writers block to. There has been times when I was about to start writing and someone stops by. My window of time is gone and I can’t get back to where I was. I have been in the middle of a good story and one of the kids need me. I would not trade my relationships with people for my relationship with writing. Sadly some people do and that to me is not a successful writer. No matter how many copies of books you sell or how well you are known. Loving a book does not feel near as good loving the people that make having a book possible.
Almost any emotion can cause writers block. I have struggled with this infliction until I overcome it and I write again. It rages through me like a fever and sometimes I think it has won because I can’t write for weeks. I send negative messages to myself, “I have lost it, I don’t care if I write, I have more important thing to do, no one wants to read it anyways, I can use more sleep, and I am robbing my family of more time with me”. This keeps going until I can no longer take the battle inside me and I once again write. I soon feel well again but a part of me fears the next writers block won’t be a fever I can break.
I am experiencing one of these reasons right now. I won’t be explaining which one because I don’t think I should. It will pass and I will find a way to make it right again. For now I will paint!
What has got in the way for you lately?